What's $1 Worth To You? - My Life, I GuessIt was one of those cold, rainy days where winter couldn’t decide if it was coming or going. The freezing rain felt like it could turn to snow any minute, and the ground was one giant slush puddle.

Despite the weather and my lack of owning proper winter boots, R and I were out running a few errands.

While we were out, we decided at the last minute to pick up a few groceries from the discount grocery store in the strip-mall. We were already there, and this way we could hibernate for the rest of the miserable (weather-wise) weekend.

Inside the grocery store, the mood was no better. We were cold, and wet, and it seemed like everyone around us was just as grumpy as we were. The glaring florescent lights and bright yellow colour scheme within the store only made things worse. We were not having a good time.

Because we weren’t originally planning to go to the grocery store, I had parked farther away than I normally would have.


Pretending to be Positive - My Life, I GuessThere’s a common belief that there’s power in positive thinking. That having a positive attitude brings happiness and success.

I’m a pretty negative person. I wish I weren’t, but I am.

I’ve been conscious of this fact for many, many years and have made attempts in the past to be more of an optimist. But then life would throw me a curveball (sometimes it’d be something big, oftentimes it’d be something small) and I’d be right back to my old pessimistic ways.

With my struggles to find a good job, and having to settle for less than I’m capable of at a fraction of the pay I used to make, I don’t think anyone would be surprised to learn that these last 2 years have left me feeling particularly negative – especially when it comes to my career, my finances, and my self-worth.

I’ve been extremely lucky to have R, my fiancé, on my side through all of this. He’s been the more positive one in our relationship.


It's a Job Not a Career - My Life, I GuessBack in December, things were looking pretty bleak for us financially. I mean even more-so than things have been over the last 2 years.

Because of the Christmas holidays, I was off work for over 2 weeks, meaning my already small income was cut in half. We were already behind on paying our bills. We couldn’t afford to do anything for Christmas. And worse yet, the early January strike deadline at R’s work was quickly approaching with no resolution in sight.

We needed a back-up plan in case the strike happened. We needed more money. And we needed it fast.


A New Job?

I finally caught a bit of a break, and landed an interview with another childcare centre in town. It went really well, and by mid-December I was offered a full-time job at a preschool!

At first, I was really excited by the prospect of working full-time again. But as I learned more about the job and the specifics of this position, I started to get this gut feeling that this wasn’t the right move for me.


My Life in 2015 - My Life, I GuessOh 2015… I can’t say I’m sad that you’re now long gone.

2015 wasn’t a great for year me. Which is why I’ve procrastinated on finishing this recap post. And why I only blogged a handful of times over the last year.

Like many people do, I started looking back over as the year end approached. But unlike many people, instead of starting fresh in the new year, I was still feeling stuck in the past. And this feeling lingered on well into January.

I could sum up my year in 2 words: underemployed and broke.

Finding a good job basically overshadowed everything else. But as the months passed, my definition of what “good” meant changed significantly. I wasn’t looking for anything fancy, I just wanted something that I liked, was qualified for, and that paid a fair wage. In other words, a job that you would expect someone in their early 30s, with a degree and years of experience to have.

Not being able to find a job that met that criteria obviously had a negative impact on my/our finances.


10 Posts That Changed My Life This Year - My Life, I GuessAs the year comes to an end, people naturally think back and reflect over the last year.

For me, 2015 was not exactly kind. Without the support from my fiance, my family, and my friends, I’d be in a very different place right now.

My lack of employment, lack of funds, and lack of confidence left me longing for something better. I spent too much of my time waiting, wishing, wanting… and incidentally, reading a lot of “self-help”, motivational and inspirational articles.

Some of these articles appeared exactly when I needed them, and said exactly what I needed them to say. Others sort of lingered in the back of my mind, only to pop-up when the time was right. Either way, their words stuck with me.

So in my reflecting on 2015, I thought the best way to wrap up the year on my blog would be to share with you 10 posts that changed my life this year.

I hope they can change your life, too!