Last Thursday, I finally had another job interview! Well, sort of. It was actually a mock session where 4 college students came to me with a problem, and then graded me on how well I interacted with them. (That’s essentially what the job is.) I could be wrong, but I feel like I KILLED IT! At first, I was nervous because I’m not overly familiar with what services are actually available on this campus, but I was told again and again that I wasn’t being judged on that. At the end, one of the students told me that I did better than the other person he had a mock session with (!!) and then I was asked to come back next week for a real interview!!!!
The woman coordinating the day told me more about the position which only made me want it more. I’ve worked a similar job before, but that was general student support (like teaching workshops and presenting at info sessions), whereas this position is much more one-on-one. They want me to establish relationships with these kids and keep tabs on them while they’re at the college. She also named-dropped a former co-worker of mine from that previous job, and that connection has to work in my favour at least a little bit, right?
I’m trying really really hard not put all my eggs in one basket, or to count my chickens before they hatch, or whatever other chicken saying is applicable here, but I want this job – SO BADLY! This is one of those jobs that if I could, I would do it for free. I would be so good at it. I just have to convince a panel of 4-5 people of that at my next interview…
Naturally, I’m under a whole lot of pressure now – but at least this is a motivational pressure and not like I’m being forced into something I don’t want. I’ve been spending most of my time reading, researching and rehearsing interview questions and tips, and learning more about the college services. Even though my previous two interviews didn’t work out, I’m grateful now for the practice it gave me. I can’t imagine how nervous I’d be if this was my first one considering how nervous I get just thinking about it!
Being in the middle of the interview process, however, makes me want to return to my current job even less – which is supposed to be happening next Tuesday (Monday is thankfully Labour Day). As “dooms day” approaches, I become more and more convinced that I shouldn’t be going back at all. (Just by writing that down I feel better!) I think it would be worse for me to go back only to leave again because they do offer me this job (please, please, please!), or because I decide being unemployed actually is the better option for my sanity. Oh how I wish money wasn’t an issue!
I’ve been told that I’m not supposed to return to work without getting the okay from my doctor, but I don’t know if that’s true or just a suggestion to buy me a little more time. (The more time part sounds extremely appealing.) Honestly, I don’t have that much faith in my doctor – I suspect that he just does whatever gets me out of his office the fastest. And I don’t know if I’ll ever be ready to go back to working this job. Either way, I haven’t been able to book an appointment between him being on vacation and no one answering the phone. Maybe I will get a few more days after all?
I know that I’m going to have to tell my current bosses something really soon. I had intended on emailing them a week ago, but I haven’t got a clue what to say because I don’t know when (if?) I’ll be going back. I want to be professional, but at the same time, I really couldn’t care less about them at this point. I’m trying to put my energies into landing me this new job and not worry about what clearly belongs in my past.
So friends, this is where I beg you for your help and support. If you have any advice and/or resources on how to kill it at an interview, working with college students, or how to “fake it til you make it”, please send them my way. And if you have any spare positive vibes, happy thoughts, prayers, or voodoo witchdoctor magic, please keep in mind from about 1:30 – 2:30pm EDT on Thursday. Thank you!!
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