Since I’ve been trapped in my apartment, trying to find the right amount of painkillers to kill the migraines, I’ve been watching a lot of tv and movies. (Who am I kidding, I watch a lot of tv regardless!) After finishing my Harry Potter marathon, I moved onto The Big C. The show, which aired 40 episodes between 2010 – 2013, stars Laura Linney (love her!):
“… follows teacher Cathy Jamison – a reserved, suburban wife and mother – who is diagnosed with melanoma. The realization of this forces her to really begin to live for the first time in her adult life. At first she chooses to keep her diagnosis from her family, behaving in ways they find puzzling and increasingly bizarre. She finds new freedom to express herself. As the show progresses, Cathy allows her family and some new friends to support her as she copes with her terminal diagnosis, and finds both humor and pathos in the many idiosyncratic relationships in her life.” (Wikipedia)
I’ve been hesitant to watch it because it’s obviously a heavy and serious topic, and with everything going on with me, I wasn’t sure I could handle it emotionally. And yeah, it is extremely sad at times, and I did bawl my eyes out on more than one occasion, but I laughed more often than not.
I could easily turn this into a post about how shitty cancer is, and how pissed off I am over all the lives it’s taken. We’ve all lost someone close to us to some form of cancer, because cancer is an asshole. But, it’s becoming clear to me that there’s too much negativity and pessimism in my life. This show is not negative or pessimistic. It’s actual very beautiful and inspirational.
Too often we wait for something awful to happen to us to take that leap with our lives; to make that change, to take those risks, to (borrow from the show’s tagline) “grab life by the balls“. Why? Why do we do this???
I know I’m guilty. I don’t know how many times I’ve blamed working too much for not doing the things I want to do with my life. That’s more or less been the theme of this entire blog thus far! And while thank GOD, my “something awful” wasn’t as serious as terminal cancer, it still took me a near mental-breakdown to just realize that I’m not living my life.
If you’ve never seen the show, I strongly suggest that you do. It just may be the kick in the ass you need.
Are you living your life?
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