Last week, I woke up in the middle of the night and just could not get back to sleep. I was tossing and turning for hours. My back and neck were killing me. Laying down hurt. Not sleeping and suffering from back and neck pain are not new to me, unfortunately. But the reasons for them happening this time were. If you’ve ever laid awake in bed at night, you’ll...
Becoming Me Again
Today marks my being off work for exactly one month (only two more to go!). While I still don’t feel quite like “me” again yet, I can say that I am getting closer. I still have days or moments full of anxiety or where I just can’t peel myself out of bed/off the couch, but those are becoming fewer, and less intense. Earlier this week, my one co-worker emailed me...
This is No Vacation, My Friend
Since last Tuesday, I’ve been on medical leave. I thought it would be a relief – that this wasn’t all just in my head, and that being granted the time and the freedom to get better would be a huge weight off my shoulders – but it wasn’t. Somehow being officially labelled as “totally disabled” made me feel worse. I sat in my car for a few minutes teary-eyed after...
I’ve Finally Made My Decision
I finally had the courage to put myself out there (well, here), and admit to the world things that I’m reluctant to accept myself – things with me aren’t going so well. Fortunately, I received a lot of support, encouraging words, and points to consider. Thank you everyone – Liquid Independence, CeCe @ Frugalista Married, Katie, eemusings, Debt and the Girl, Janine, SuburbanFinance, strangers over at Ask a Manager, Chad,...
Stress Leave: Am I Really Sick or Just Looking for an Easy Out?
I haven’t been doing a very good job of keeping up with this blog since I decided to change over to self-hosting back in March. Truth is, I haven’t been doing a very good job of keeping up with my LIFE since about then, either. The stress, anxiety, and depression from being stuck in a toxic work environment is taking its toll on me – physically, mentally, and emotionally. I’ve...