It’s All Your Fault, August!

It’s all August’s fault.

August means that 8 weeks of my medical leave have passed and I still haven’t landed an interview or made any progress on finding a new job at all. August means I have less than 4 weeks to decide what the hell I’m going to do. August means I’m running out of time and options.

I was finally starting to feel focused and motivated again, but then August came up on me like a Dementor to Harry Potter. “BAM! No more happy for you!

I had a bit of a relapse, and temporarily hit rock bottom again. It caught me completely off guard. Nothing bad happened and there was no warning sign or progression like there usually is. Any motivation I had on the job search front was completely gone, as was my interest in blogging (but I love you guys!). Looking at a computer screen hurt. I couldn’t focus on anything. I didn’t want to eat anything. I slept more than I was awake, and even then I could barely get myself off the couch. Everything made me unbelievably sad and/or mad.

Although there are obvious cons to living alone and being off work, I was grateful to have the time and space – I had nowhere to be, I could sleep in relative peace whenever and for however long I wanted, I didn’t have to worry if the apartment got a little messy, and I could just lie around all day until whatever that was passed. Without a doubt, I’m going to miss this freedom.

So what am I going to do now that’s it August? Besides continue to have panic attacks, I mean.

– I can cross my fingers and toes, and pray to the pink invisible unicorn in the sky that I either hear from a job that I’ve already applied to with an interview and a job offer, or that a new opening magically appears and they hire me within the next few weeks.

– I can ask my doctor to extend my medical leave but that will only give me an extra 3 weeks. After that (15 weeks total) my short-term disability becomes a long-term disability, and the government doesn’t cover that; neither does my health insurance.

– I can go back to work in the hopes that instead of cutting my hours to part time (as I anticipate they will, since they did that to several of my co-workers), that they lay me off. However, I know I can’t survive very long on E.I., and I’m not even sure I’d be eligible after being on sick leave. (Anyone know?)

– I can just suck it up and go back to work. Even it is part time and detrimental to my health, it’s the only “sure” thing.

– I can get a little more serious with the side-hustles I have in mind, and start making a least a little bit of money. Or go nuts with it and hope its enough to live off of.

– I can apply to a call center and do the 4-weeks of in-class training for minimum wage before they move us to the phones and I quit, thus buying me a bit more time.

– I can contact the one and only temp agency in town and hope for the best. I haven’t heard great things about them though.

– I can keep entering giveaways and hope that I win enough prize money to live off until I find a new job.

– I can just be unemployed and drain what’s left of my savings until I’m homeless and poor.

– I can hope that the nice people of the internet will just send me money out of the kindness of their hearts.

 All I know is I gotta do something, and soon. I just have no idea what. Help?

Amanda Kay

Amanda Kay, an Employment Specialist and founder of My Life, I Guess, strives to keep the "person" in personal finance by writing about money, mistakes, and making a living. She focuses on what it’s like being in debt, living paycheck to paycheck, and surviving unemployment while also offering advice and support for others in similar situations - including a FREE library of career & job search resources.

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17 thoughts on “It’s All Your Fault, August!”

  1. Yikes, that’s a tough situation to be in for sure.

    I have a friend that spent half a year living out of the country and she spent her first few months back taking some down time to herself. When she was ready to start looking for work she used the internet to build a solid professional profile for herself, spent a LOT of time on LinkedIn and went out of her way to network like crazy online. It was kind of a full time job at the time but it paid off in the end.

    I don’t know to what extent you’re using the internet to get yourself out there (I mean, obviously you’re blogging and you’re on Twitter but you know what I mean!) but it’s always another avenue worth considering. Maybe? I dunno, that’s all I’ve got :-S

    • I’ve always been horrible at networking, but I’ve started making myself do it more. Hopefully that’s the magic trick that lands me something decent. I do have a LinkedIn profile, but I hardly use it. Maybe it’s time for that too. Thanks, Sara!

  2. Ugghh!! Doesn’t being an adult suck? I’m crossing my fingers for you too that something works out. You definitely have options for keeping a roof over your head even though some of them aren’t the greatest.

    • Yah, I gotta keep reminding myself that. I’m feeling “stuck” – yes, but I’m not I’m not really. Things just aren’t working out how I’d like. 🙂

  3. Laying around worrying and wallowing in a pity party just leads to more depression. Believe me, I know. As tough as it may be, you have to take charge of your own life and get on with it. Sorry as I am that your dream job didn’t work out, you still have a lot of living to do! Don’t let them suck you into a hole. You’re better than that and you still have a lot to give. And there are no money fairies or magic fixes.

  4. I really wish I could help you or give you some insight into what might be the ‘right’ thing to do… You’re in a tough spot (as are a lot of us right now). Every single day I want to walk out of my job and quit, I hate it that much. It’s really too bad that we have to be starting our adult lives out in a market like this where the only places available to work are fast-food and part time.

    • I’m actually excited about working part time only, if I can get some of my “side hustles” off the ground so that I can still afford to you know, eat and stuff. But yah, it’s crap that we can’t find anything else.

  5. I’m so sorry you’re going through this. I’m a Recruiter and Career Coach and I can’t tell you how many people feel completely helpless thinking that they’re out of options… but they’re there. It’s just a matter of time before those options unveil themselves.

    I had a friend who was in a similar position with her job search and after months of searching, decided to become a Virtual Assistant. It took her a while to get things rolling, but 3 years later, she’s doing very well.

    I can’t remember which sites she joining, I believe she joined VA job sites in the beginning.

    I wish you all the very best!!

    • I will definitely have to check out VA jobs and maybe even some freelancing. It’s all just so new to me, but I love the idea.
      Thanks so much for all your help!!!

  6. How are you feeling now? It’s rubbish when life gets us down. 🙁 I think you should definitely look into the side hustles and see what you can make of them. Sometimes when life sucks, we just need one good thing to happen and it helps pick us back up again.

  7. I’ve seen some stressed out folks in my work life, but you take the cake. My dear, please calm down. I don’t know the whole story, since I’ve read back only so far in your blog (and I was looking for something online but stumbled upon YOU, and I really need to get back to what I was doing).

    I’ve seen some stressful jobs in my lifetime. I’ve seen myself through a lot of it by taking stress leave. I’ve taken so many stress leaves aka ‘sabbaticals.’ Sometimes I had to go back to the old job I hated and persevere. I focused on something I liked to do after work until I found a better job that was more to my liking. Finding a ‘de-stressor’ after work really helped me immensely.

    Other times I found a way out of the terrible, nerve-wrecking job before the time off was over. After a few months or years, I’d get stressed out again.

    It’s burnout. Now I work six months a year as a travel therapist. It’s not all cakes and gravy, but thankfully I don’t have to look at the same folks at a job everyday.

    I wish the best to you and calm down. You’ll see better days.

    • Hey Nina,
      I’m glad you found me and took the time to comment 🙂 I’m really hoping I don’t have to go back to the stressful job, but if so, that’s a great tip! I will be sure to plan to do something fun or that I like each day afterwards.
      Thanks again.


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